me love you daddy!

Hihi, hello fellas! today happy gila. sbb ayah bagi handphone bru. dahlah phone nokia tu kena tipu. jahat. ni pun Alhamdulillah ayah bagi phone better than before. me love you so much you know. before this phone Nokia 72. entahlah. betullah kot. now dpt X5. unexplained feelings. takut juga la guna fon ni. sbb ayah kata yg sa ni kasar sgt. tak boleh guna fon slight,flip. kay harap2 dpt lah jaga phone ni elok elok. wish me luck yaa.

Shit

Seriously aku taktahu apa masalah kau nbyl

Memang dri smalam aku tak ada mood langsung dgn kau

kau yang buat aku takde mood

so kau tak payah nak marah aku sbb aku bengang dgn kau

macam td

aku bg kelonggaran dkt kau cntct/jumpa perempuan lain

yang kau sampai nak melebih2 kenapa?

Aku bg jumpa/ contact tu cukup bagus ah

dri aku kongkong kau tk bg jumpa/ contact dgn kawan perempaun kau

baik aku bg je kau buat apa

yang kau sampai nk fikir aku bg kelonggaran sbb aku nk jumpa/ cntct laki lain

kau dah kenapa?

pastu kau nk tau apa masalah aku

WTF

kau yang buat aku ada masalah kau tau tak!?

aku elok2 bg kau kelonggran

kau nak tuduh aku mcm2?

Serious lah

SUMPAH DEMI ALLAH!

Aku sakit hati sangat sangat dekat kau

aku tak tipu

Sorry :/

sorry, aku terpaksa layan kau macam ni

aku taknak kau sedih bila aku takde kat sini

Aku sayang kau

Aku ingat semua janji janji aku

Tapi aku taktau kenapa kau tak boleh nak percaya aku :/

aku boleh pegang kata kata aku

Aku cuma minta kau percaya aku

Tu je

Tolonglah faham

alahh, setahun je tak jumpa

aku tau kau boleh

kau kan selalu kata kau kuatt? :')

takkan nanti kau nak kata kau tak boleh jumpa aku?

I know you can baby ;)

BYE (:

Today Happy + Risau + Sedih

Yang happynya, sa dapat pindah bangi and stay with my lovely cous Atheera (:

I still remember this moment. 

Apa apa mesti spend time dgn Mira and Traa

Dulu pernah menyanyi then record :P

Dulu pernah buat video guna lagu Cuppycake

Dulu pernah mandi samasama then letak ubat gigi as sabun badan -.-'

Dulu pernah tangkap gambar sama sama

Dulu pernah share secrets. EVERYTHING! :P

teheee :D

Ni yang risaunya ;(

Tra kata apply cepat cepat sekolah tu
sbb takut penuh

alaaaa sumpah nak sekolah sama oh

takut gila sekolah tu penuh. 

God HELP MEEEE!

Ni sedih ;(

sedih sebab sa kena tinggalkan FAMILY
Ayahhhh, Mamaaaa tata ;(

I'll miss you guys soooo much!
I'll remember your advice

And I'll make you guys proud of me
That is my promise
Pray for me xoxo

Sha, Ida, Nana, Amy, Ayra, Tyra

I hope you guys will do the best ;)

Bak kata nana

'WIMEMBEH ME K? :('

haha comel je kawan aku yang tecik ni :P

Well, I'll miss you guys :')

Sha: sa akan simpan gambar kita tiga tu elok elok ;) my sweetest moment! xoxo

Ida: sa ingat semua nasihat ida! :D
Nana: sa ingat semuaaaa sweet moment kita :)
Amy: Sa takkan lupa masa Amy dgn Tyra gaduh :P xD
Ayra: you are a very good listener xoxo

Tyra: Me love you :* <3

KENA TINGGAL

'I rasa dah sampai masa untuk I lepaskan you , maybe I tak cukup bagus untuk you , maybe ada orang lain yang lebih bagus dari I , susah untuk I lepaskan you , tapi ni untuk kebaikan you , I harap bila you dah dekat sana , cari lah pengganti yang baik yg tak cerewet mcm I , you'll need better guy than me :'('

look, lissa baru tegur pasal perangai dia, sikit je, sa tegur cara baik, sa tak maki hamun dia, sa tak merajuk apa dengan dia, tiba txt mcm ni. apa masalah? kalau tengok mata dia, memang dia tak sayang lissa betul2 lagi. cuma one day, dia baru sayang sa betul2, taknak blamekan dia selama ni, dia happy dengan hidup dia. dia yang decide kan lissa cari lelaki lain. dia ckp senanggg. okay memang i banyak sangat control you. kalau boleh satu hari I nak txt you, taknak stop langsung. Ya I bengang kalau you reply lambat. Kalau you kata you busy. I mengaku I fikir lain. tp I percaya you Nabil. Ni satu je nabyl. I minta you percaya yang I sayang you. Susah sangat ke? Apa yang tak cukup lagi? You kata tak payah layan lelaki, I tak layan. Even member baik I! I ikut kata you. Kalau you buat I marah. You marah I balik. You ungkit semua kesalahan I. And for sure you maki hamun mencarut semua cukup dekat I. I stay dengan you. I sayang you. tak apalah b. kita sekarang kawan. Anggap I ni kawan you. Tak lebih. Me do love you so much :'(

fuck

I HATE YOU

MUHD NABIL !

I HATE YOU SO SO SO AND SO MUCH!

I HATE YOU SO DAMN FUCKING MUCH!

I MEAN IT!

Its All About Him (:

I want to tell moreee about him <3 (:

-->Muhd Nabil Bin Azwan Fairuz

-->17 *SPM Candidates

-->He loves ME mwihihi :D

-->Lissa loves him :P

-->kuat merajuk

-->suka kena pujuk
-->suka kiss pipi lissa :D

-->mulut dia tu kekadang kena stepler sbb dia tak kira kat mana pun dia nak juga kiss pipi lissa

-->tangan dia pun sama kena ikat sbb kat skolah pun dia nk peluk nak pgg tgn

-->suka bergurau dengan lissa, tp kekadang tak layann

-->he would do anything for me * thanks yaang (:

--> suka tersengih-sengih *tu yang buat mama suka dia :P

-->dia bijak, boleh ajar lissa *and this thing makes my dad likes him too :D

-->rajin datang rumah *buat adik lissa suka kawan dgn dia

-->dia wangi, pembersih and sentiasa kemas

-->comel gila nak mati bila dia gelak :D

-->and sekarang sa dah kurang nak dgr ape yg org nak kata pasal dia

-->me trust you baby :)

-->And he always makes me laugh (:

*Nabil, I might not get to see you as often as I'd like, I may not get to hold you in my arms at night, but deep in my heart I know that's true. No matter what happens. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU (:

Sayanggg :)

HI :)

lupa nak update the best moment with Muhd Nabil saya hihi :D

 sa paling suka waktu ni.

masa tu Form 3 dgn Form 5

buat solat hajat

masa pergi, naik kereta dgn Aishah Sha

Then masa balik naik dengan Jit and Nabil

dah ambil makanan tp tak makan lg

then lepak lah dkt BTP 2

sa laparrr :/

then nbyl offer, nak i suap tak

then sa ckp nak

tapi dlm hati asyik kata

'dia tak geli ke nak suap aku guna tangan'

okay sa act mcm biasa lah kannn

then sa ambil nasi tu, sa bg dia

then dia suap lissa guna tangan dia

*terharuu :')

hihi

tak sangka dia nak suap lissa

serious sweet gila sayang aku ni

then sa makan sampai habis

b, knw what? tu lah saat yang paling sa suka

suka gila sayang

sweet sgt, tau tau je i tk suka makan guna tangan bila takda sabun kannn

hee

i saaaaaaaaaaayang you sangat

*even dah break 4 kali :P

You will never know how much you meant to ME

He's mine (:

okayy, td txt2 dgn dia, tetibe credit lisa habis

then sa buat call me back,

then dia call lah

then diamcm ada problem dgn lissa, lissa pun haaa tah lah

then lepas letak phone call tu

sa mandi

ada dua txt dari nabil ni

dia kata sa dah bosan dgn dia thats why lissa txt dgn laki lain semua

then dia kata jangan disebabkan you suka layan ex and kawan laki you

buatkan i nak tinggalkan you

fucker damn lah -________-

kalau lissa dah tak sayang nabil

lissa dah minta break and layan ex ex lissa

nabil tak percaya lissa lagi

sa tak akan curang dengan nabil

kalau nabil tinggalkan lissa lagi

lissa taktahu lah

maybe lissa tak dpat maafkan nabil and takkan sayang nabil

lissa sayang nabil, jangan tuduh macam2

seriously lissa sayang nabil

memang jarang lissa tunjuk kat nabil yang lissa sayang nabil

tapi please lah, lissa sayang nabil, and i really do

Him (:

Hello!

This is ME and MUHD NABIL AZWAN

hihi :D

I LOVE HIM SOOOOO MUCH

taknak hilang you, yeah you Nabil :)

Act dia tgh tacing dgn lissa now

mwihihi :D

sbb td dia kata

'thanks sbb spoilkan mood i'

sa kata

'welcome'

saja nak tgk respon dia

then dia ambil serious

sa dah tak kesah dah, sbb sa dah tau dia mcm ni

then ayat dia yang paaaaaling comel is

'sumpah you jahat'

haha 

lissa taktahu apa yg comel but cara dia tulis tumcm comel

and boleh bayangkan cara dia ckp 

dgn muka merajuk dia

atoto :P

b i sayang you lah

sayang sangat sangat tau b :)

My Best (:

Well, this is ME and Aishah

I love her, and she's my best bud in Bandar Tasik Puteri ;)

She likes to make me laugh :D

Sha ni agak tak betul, dia terbalik sikit

hikhokk ;D

Love ya!

This is Eida

She's prettayyyy ;)

Ida ni pun kekadang terbalik jugak

She's also my best bud in Bandar Tasik Puteri :)

Its me

Act lissa saaaaaaaaaayang DIA sangat2

tapi sekarang taktahu lah

sekejap sayang sekejap tak

how?

taknak langsung hilang dia

sbb kitaorg nak masuk 9 month

i just FUU

taktahu apa yg lissa nak dari dia

apa yg dia buat semua tak kena bg lissa

and asal dia buat hali sikit je

sa marah dia 

yaa, sa kesian dkt dia

sa boleh nampak yg dia still syg lissa mcm dulu

but WHATS WRONG WITH YOU LISSA?

apa yang kurang dkt dia?

apa yg buat lissa jadi mcm ni?

tak sayang dia dah?

no wayy, dah janji yang sa akansayang dia smpai bila2

tp boleh janji tu sa tunaikan?

come on lissa.

lissa still sayang dia

tak payah nak mcm ni

ilovehimsomuch act ;(

I

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...

Me

Nothings gonna change the way I feel and you know that I'm gonna love you still. Please don’t turn your back, I cant believe it's hard just to talk to you, but you don't understand. Because we're not together now, and I want to be with you. I'm sorry I can't just be friends. Am I too late, or do I have a chance? I'm sorry... I can't just be friends.

Yesterday :)

17 September 2011

hee :)

semalam pergi openhouse

baim ambil dekat rumah aiman

lissa baru lepas dtg aiman punya openhouse

then pergi rumah SHA dgn aiman and baem

then pergi lah rumah tashaaaa :)

dah sampai rumah tasha

duduk dengan SHA, baem, aiman, ehsan, mirul, epy

then dah habis makan kat rumah tasha

pergi GVP

lissa just duduk dekat2 kereta until diorang sampai

then yang PAAAAAAAALING BEST :D

Qalam dengan Wali duduk dekat depan cermin kereta tu

haha serious kelkar, lissa tak boleh stop gelak

then sampai satu part ni

Qalam jatuh dari kereta

OH MY GOD

terkejut lissa

takut qalam teruk

masa jatuh tu Qalam boleh lagi gelak

tak boleh belah betul -.-'

then hantar qalam kejap, dah injured kan

tengok2 kat siku qalam ada luka

kecian ;D

then dah habis2, 

my turn balik rumah

baem hantar depan rumah and i said thanks

and balik mandi tidurrr 

*peace

Thanks :)

Thanks sayanggg :*

act, kitaorg baru okay, gaduh hihi

then dlm library nbyl buat ni hihi

thanks yaaa, sayang you <3

......................................................................................................

Credit to Ida :)

thanks idaaa buatkan benda ni

hihi

comel sangat tauuu

sayang ida :)

Yaya :(

BEFORE

AFTER

Look at yaya,

dia sakit :(

kesian dia, lissa sayang yaya sanngat2 tau tak

jangan lah sakit2 yaya :(

dulu yaya selalu main dengan lissa, then mcm mana yaya boleh sakit?

yaaa sa selalu buli yaya, im so sorry :(

lissa sayang yaya tau :'(

(:

I HATE YOU :)

people change

okayy

just taktahu kenapa sekarang ni

kepercayaan lissa dekat DIA dah berkurangan

i just dont know why

and sekarang ni rasa benci lebih banyak dari rasa sayang

kenapa yaaa?

sebab dia kurang bg perhatian

and perangai dia nampak mcm dia ada org lain

jangan marah, sa just tulis apa yg sa rasa selama ni

kalau dia buat hal lagi

sa takkan teragak2 buat keputusan yg sa pernah janji dulu

IM LEAVING YOU

yahh im so sorry

Raya

Act tahun ni punya raya tak best sangat

sbb tahun ni tak dapat raya dengan nenda

raya dengan atuk je

and tak dapat raya amang

nak sangat raya ampang

please ayah? sa nak raya ampang :(

lissa rindu atheera, mira, kak farah, tia, fana

rindu nak beraya dengan dorang 

kalau kat Kota Damansara

tak ada siapa pun :/

ada family kita je

tahun dpn raya ampang yaa?

and lissa nak pergi abg faisal kahwin!

PLEASE YA AYAH !

My Babunn :*

Say Hello to Muhd Nabil :)

well he is my love

I do love him

Yaaa, kitaorg memang selalu gaduh, tapi bak kata nabil ni

'even kita selalu sangat gaduh, gaduh tu lah yang buatkan hubungan kita lebih akrab'

haaa? betul ke?

haha betul lah kannn :)

happy act couple dengan nbyl ni

dia understanding

bagi lissa yaaa dia perfect :)

even dia selalu ckp dia tak perfect bagai

*macam i kesah?

haha

kat mata i you perfectlah nabyll :)

dont worry, i takkan mintak break dekat you buat kali kedua

tu pun kalau you ak buat hal lagi lah

HEHE :D

And im jealous of the people who get to see and be with you everyday

*ayat desperate kan?

hee :D

btw ILOVEYOUSOMUCH Muhd Nabil <3

yayaaa :)

okay this is my yaya and snowy yayaaa :D

hihi baru2 ni dia lahirkan anak

ada 4 ekor

tapi 2 ekor maaaaaaaaaatii :(

so, sekarang tinggal 2, mygoshhh

serious comel lah nyahhh 

mak suka xD

well this is Shynoboo <3

anak yaya

tengok mata diaaa

sebelah hijau sebelah biru right?

hihi my fav lah!

sayang shynoboo sangat2 tau takkkk

dahlah putih, gebu pulak

ikut sebijik macam yaya :)

And this is Dylan

dia ni tak boleh duduk diam

main je kerja

then bila jumpa Pine, dia angkat badan

tunjuk mcm dia kuat

selalu mcm tu

dia ni pun comel jugak

haha entahlah nak sayang mana satuu

well im done :)

ILOVEYOU!

trust no bitches

sekarang ni memang susah nak cari kawan

tambah2 kalau pindah tempat baru

kena cari kawan yang betul2 okay bru okay

now i've found my true friend at this town

i've called them as my bestfriend :)

so, say hello to Siti Raidah and Siti Aishah

dont worry Adlina Azman, Sheda, Huda, Wani, Wanie, Asyiqin

korang tetap bestfriend number satu

missyoudamnmuch peeps :)

I can't fix myself :/

Okay seriously

tak suka betul kalau orang kacau hak lissa

like friends, family, things, and my boyfriend

kalau boyfriend lah kan,

pantang betul tgk perempuan yg tak faham perasaan org

tak payah nk menggedik kalau dah tahu dia someone own's

ckp2 biasa tak apa, ni tak payah nk mengharap sgt lah kannn

nak dia ke?aloloo :) shian dia ehhh

fuckoff bitch.

Hello

I think she is better than me

SHIT

DAMN !

bapak geram

semua pass aku lupa

nak bukak ym

pass tak ingat

nak bukak skype pun

tak ingat jugak!

EEEEEE !

bunuh kang comp ni

TODAY :D

Hello there :)

today lissa tidur rumah nenek, with my dearest nenek

lap u so much :*

tadi masa dinner, maid nenek masak ikan masak gulai kot

then sa makan makan and makan

tiba2 rasa sakit dekat tekak

sa ckp kat nenek

' nenek, hehe, sa tercekik tulang ikan, sakit lah '

nenek stop makan, then nenek kata

' haa? mcm mana boleh tercekik tulang ikan? ikan ni punya tulang pun sikit'

then ayah menyampuk

ayah kata

' awak ambil nasi, gumpal2 kan, then telan jangan kunyah'

sa amek la gumpal gumpal and gumpal

nak telan then mcm nk trmuntah sbb besar sgt,

then kecikkan

boleh telan tau

YAAAAY! :D

then nenek kata

' lepas ni lissa tak boleh makan ikan dah, nanti tercekik lagi, makan ayam je, nenek pun dah taknak makan ikan takut tercekik '

lissa kata

' hehe okay nenek comel '

HAVE FUN

Hello There :)

hehe yesterday sumpah best even ada benda yang MEMALUKAN

lissa hang dengan wanie, aina, syukri and 

2 couples

HUDA AND ZUL

FARAH AND AMIRUL

sweet ;)

hehe smalam kteorg hang tak lama pun tapi rasa macam lama

mcm2 org jumpa,

ada satu past ni sa nagn wanie jalan sama2 then nampak satu couple ni

GOSH ! DAMN SWEET XD

lelaki handsome perempuan lawa

BUT

masa dia berdiri dalam LRT sumpah tak handsome tapi masa jalan otw pergi LRT handsome 

And masa duduk pun handsome so tatau mana satu betul

Then TERjumpa satu awek manyak CUN

berdiri sebelah sa masa nak bagi duit dekat ADRAFIL :D

yang awek cun ni senyummm je kat sa

and sa tak cam

then lama2 tengok

hehe

ATHEERA SYAKINA SHADLI

sumpah comel! :D

haha sa terus hug dia, then ssa kata dia pendek sbb masa tu sa pakai heels

dia speaking masa marah sa, haha lawak2

btw sampai sini je lah hee, nenek panggil tidur XD

night2

bad day ;(

Yesterday, i slept with my brothers and my grandpa at my Toktam's house, because my grandmother masuk hosp, then pagi tadi memang nak balik my kampung kat beruas then ayah ada kat ipoh sbb ada kerja, kiteorg tunggu ayah balik, tnggu2, tetibe ayah txt ayah kata kereta rosak tengah2 highway, then kteorg blik kg naik taxi, then mase otw back, atok call opahtam he said that my grandma is gone, mama terkejut, mata mama berair, adik lissa menangis, but lissa tak, lissa segan nak menangis, then tadi first time sa tgk org kapankan mayat, mandikan jenazah and everything, but alhamdulillah, masa opah meninggal muka nenek senyum, bila ingat kenangan lissa dgn dia mmg sedih, sbb dia lagi sporting dari mama, dia pernah kata lissa kalau nak ada boyfriend jangan tengok rupa but hati, cari yanga ada masa depan and boleh bawak lissa ke jalan yg benar, itu dah cukup. hmm lissa harap dia ditempatkan dengan orang2 yang beriman, and im gonna miss you a lot opah :') al fatihah